I didn’t cry since I left doctor’s office. I don’t even know why. And what is strange…I am very calm. Probably my knowledge and experience make me feel stronger. It’s very strange as well but I feel kind of relief. This bomb was sitting and ticking. I didn’t know when and will blow up. Constant fear wasn’t a pleasure. Now I know. Cancer is back, I have already plan in place and I have to deal with it. Roll-on 3rd of November! New drugs, new experience!