15/12/2016 Not great day today… 15 years ago I said: “Yes, I do” to the most wonderful man on the planet. 15 years married, 16 years together, our crystal anniversary and I am spending this day in the hospital. It supposed to be simple and quick, morning CT scan. Nurses and doctor couldn’t get the needle in. […]
Category Archives: My Fight
Life sucksToday I was supposed to be packed and waiting with my son for the plane going to Poland for my mums 60th Birthday surprise. Everything was booked and organised. My friend supposed to collect us from the airport and drop us to my parents house. I can see my mums and dad’s faces… Tomorrow I had […]
It was a rough time for me. It’s been 3 weeks since my first carbo/caelyx and now I’m one week before the next session. I spent 2 first weeks In bed. Another week I had to still stay at home as my white cells count went very low. I saw my doctor today. She wasn’t happy […]
6 long and extremely hard days behind. I got hit by a train. Wait, two trains. I barely remember last 3 days. Nausea, sickness, diarrhea, pain, fear. This chemo was much, much worse. I felt guilty and sad that my two boys Szymek and Tom have to watch how miserable I am. I had an appointment […]
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3.11.16 Nothing has changed on haematology ward. Same nurses, same procedures, same gray faces. Funny…Nurse is saying to me: “Nice to see you…” Really? I don’t complain. They are really nice, warm and helpful. They have a very hard job to do. Ok, let’s get the drip in. Good luck with this as my veins haven’t recovered […]
30.10.16 I didn’t cry since I left doctor’s office. I don’t even know why. And what is strange…I am very calm. Probably my knowledge and experience make me feel stronger. It’s very strange as well but I feel kind of relief. This bomb was sitting and ticking. I didn’t know when and will blow up. Constant […]
There is only ONE good thing about the recurrence…You know exactly when it comes. You can feel it in your gut and you can’t be wrong! I didn’t have any symptoms when I was the first time diagnosed in 2015 with stage IIIc ovarian cancer. That was a shock for me. This time, just a few weeks […]